Saturday, February 28, 2009

Unused......

I received an e-mail from my "new friend" in Bulgaria and I was so moved to tears with a statement she made,

...........You are now in my thoughts daily as I try to imagine what you've been through, but surely cannot fathom it. At times I have gone into the boys' room while they are sleeping and one by one tried to picture God taking one of them to Heaven, the empty gap it would leave, the empty bed, the unused clothes, the missing boy in the line-up of our guys, the never knowing why it needed to happen, wondering if I could somehow have prevented it, all the human feelings and reactions, and though I don't know what it really is like, it certainly helps me be more thankful for each day together. It helps me relax about the unimportant things that used to be so irritating. It makes life so much more precious.

Here is a mommy that I just met with such handsome boys herself, my heart was touched to think that she sought to relate in some way to my sorrow, she moved as close as she could get and that put me to tears, to think she would "think" for a moment the pain that our family has gone through. I was blessed as she expressed her sorrow with me in this way, thank you Katie. Her family is a missionary family, they are expecting their 7th boy to their all boy crew, and she also has placenta previa, so pray for her as she continues this blessed pregnancy!

Joel's toddler bed......put away.....unused
Joel's clothes......stored away......unused
Joel's special toys that were his.....packed away......unused

Oh, Lord, allow Joel's 3 years of life to be used.....
Make me to be used.....
Make our family to be used......
Use us , for your glory!!!!




2 comments:

Mountain Mama said...

Unused and Used!
I love how you have allowed to be "used" by God through this season of life. Thanks for sharing it with all of us.

WOW!! Love the new addition to the house!! How exciting. Must be fun to have the guys around and being able to peek in on them and their progress. When we build our next camp building, I think your guys should come do it. They seem to have lots of experience with the blocks.

Yay! I am so glad you got a box to make your internet faster. You said something about the pictures. Does that mean you had not seen any of our blog pics until now?

blessings,
ashley

Emma and Mommy said...

Yes that was a fireplace in the picture on my blog. But don't wish for snow yet, I haven't bought any wood!

I will put new pics up soon, have to get the rest of the house unpacked and organized before snapping more pics.

Its is more spacious than the last place we were in, and I am so happy about that. I even have a whole closet just for Emma's supplies!

Stay warm, I just let the dog out and its soooo cold down here this morning. I hear 85 on Thur, so I guess I won't be putting that fireplace to use on Thur!