Tuesday, April 14, 2015


We made lavender cupcakes with honey frosting today. They smell so aromatic. The smell Makes me think of a "place" that I would like to be. Soothing and calming. They say lavender is good for so many things. I use it often. Google and find out how you can use it. 

I wonder if life will ever be different? I wonder if any of my dreams will come true? I absolutely have no understanding of what my purpose is everyday. I swear all I do is clean house and cook. I don't necessarily mind those things, I just want to do  house projects. There are so many many broke things, I can't keep up the list. I'm griping I know. I lost something when Joel died. I lost the joy of living. I must make myself be grateful when so many have it far worse and their sufferings are much greater. Sometimes I can't figure out why so many people have to suffer and others don't. Some live their whole lives and never face anything. Right now, it seems like the Lord is far far away. And I know, it's not him, it's me. I must keep trusting and believing and hoping. I was suppose to be on a plane Friday, but plans changed, probably why I'm so down. 

Enough of that. there's too much in their to tell another person anyways. 

So onward with lavender cupcakes. They heal anything!

Friday, April 10, 2015


Magical. fairies. dreams. that's what we have happening right in our backyard. Hosies flower garden is turning into a little never, never land. So whimsical! We have a good start and can't wait to see all the little plants grow and get bushy and flourish!! Everyone should have a fairy garden. It's so fun and enjoyable to look at! Thanks to my dad and Shirley for their generosity to Hosie and also Andrew pitched in too. Can't wait to see how all the flowers climb the trellis!! 

my bike

Biking has become one of my favorite things to do. A dream of mine is to travel but it doesn't look like that is going to be happening, so for now, my bike lets me travel in my mind to warm sunny places. Plus it's great exercise!! 

Tuesday, April 7, 2015


Gorgeous day on the farm! 90 degrees!! Makes me so so happy!! Farm to table asparagus for dinner!!

Friday, April 3, 2015

Joel's tree

Will the missing ever end? Will the broken heart ever be mended? Will the joy ever be restored? not in this life. That's why faith is in the unseen. Faith is hoping for what is yet to come. Heaven. Easter is a time for purposeful hope and reflection of what is to be. In he meantime, Joel's tree is beautiful!