Thursday, December 11, 2008

Remember.....


I can not say I am really sad but I am not really joyful. I do not feel like I am on the mountain top, but I do not feel I am engulfed in grief, maybe its just a blah medium. I am having memories of what each day was in 2006 and it is hard but I do not feel knocked down by them yet I can not seem to feel totally happy, joyful at this particular time. So that makes it difficult for me to write, what do I write about?? I so enjoy reading and "hearing" from the word and then sharing it with you all yet as of late I have been in the reading and nothing seems to leap out. I read one verse this morning and maybe it just says it all, how I feel and what to do.....Mark 8:18, and do ye not remember? Maybe I just need to remember, remember His faithfulness, remember what He has saved me from, remember how He directed Terry and I together, remember, His mercies and blessing in childbearing, remember His sufferings and that if I suffer I will reign with Him, remember his mercies towards Joel in that it could have all been a lot worse, remember His provisions of the past and that he will do the same for the future.....there is much to remember about Him. Remembering Him as a Baby and His plans for redemption. Remembering to tell Him thank you!

Last night we watched a movies called The Printing. Its one of the few that you can watch. Its about Communists Russia and Christians being persecuted for their faith as they sought to print Bibles. Well, the last time and only other time I watched it was 5 years ago, in 2003, I was about 2 weeks away from delivery with Joel and Josiah. At that point, I was not bedridden for the twins sake, its just the only comfortable position, laying down!! Even sitting was sooo uncomfortable. I remember all the children piled on the bed watching it! Some parts are a little scary for the little ones as the KGB officials hunt down people and they would cover their faces up. For some reason when we started watching it, I thought it was a short movie and then as we kept laying there and it turned into two hours. Sweet memories of those little fellows inside my womb, their kicks, their movements are joys unspeakable!! Anyway we did that last night and had Blue Bell to go along with it!!

Bethany is mailing out Goat Soap orders, make yours if you like and it should get there in time for Christmas. She has them all wrapped individually in netting and ribbons. Great gifts!!

Tomorrow.... grocery day. Anna and I are trying to get all of our baking stuff on this round. She has some new goodies recipes she is trying this year. Terry's folks are due up this way soon, so the children have one more small round of happenings with their grandparents. I do not now exactly what we are going to do Christmas day, as we do not normally give gifts, by the time the grandparents get done, the children have made a haul, so I am seeking to think of something we can do as a family. We are going to fix a really neat Christmas breakfast though. I know what ever we do Terry will just enjoy being off and out of the cold!!

Thats about it for now......

Cindy

3 comments:

She Became A Butterfly said...

It's Nikki from the NB Blogathon. I'm praying for you and your family during this time of remembrance. I'm lifting you up to God and his infinite love.

Nikki
pookielocks@ymail.com

Lockwoods said...

We watched the printing last Christmas at Daniel's Uncle's house. The children really enjoyed it too and it made for some wonderful discussions during the next few days. Our Elijah has wanted to go to Russia to be a missionary for a few years now, so it was really special for him.
I just got your email too...thank you and thank you for praying. It looks like we will be heading up to Redding (hometown) again for Christmas and to see a doctor there. If we do decide to have the baby in the USA, I need to establish care soon (at least that's how it is in Redding). Hoping I can come back with the family as planned the beginning of January!
I think of you, Cindy, often in these days as I know your mommy's heart has so many sweet memories, yet hurts so much too. When you come to mind, I always try to stop and just pray for you.
Thank you for the blessing you are to me!
love,
Jaynee

Lockwoods said...

We watched the printing last Christmas at Daniel's Uncle's house. The children really enjoyed it too and it made for some wonderful discussions during the next few days. Our Elijah has wanted to go to Russia to be a missionary for a few years now, so it was really special for him.
I just got your email too...thank you and thank you for praying. It looks like we will be heading up to Redding (hometown) again for Christmas and to see a doctor there. If we do decide to have the baby in the USA, I need to establish care soon (at least that's how it is in Redding). Hoping I can come back with the family as planned the beginning of January!
I think of you, Cindy, often in these days as I know your mommy's heart has so many sweet memories, yet hurts so much too. When you come to mind, I always try to stop and just pray for you.
Thank you for the blessing you are to me!
love,
Jaynee