Then was our mouth filled with laughter, and our tongue with singing: then said they among the heathen, The Lord hath done great things for them. The Lord hath done great things for us: whereof we are glad. Ps.126:2-3
Then..... at the very begining when our house (family) was being built by God, then there was laughter and our tongues were singing....even then the Lord had done great things for us. Now......the Lord is doing great things for us. This verse has made me think of our past, the grace and mercy of the Lord has been overflowing, Nothing has changed from then until now. Then, God was with us, he is with us now, he was with us then in our ignorance and immaturity, he is with us now as our hearts are being made better through sorrowing and mourning. There are no "ifs" in God's kingdom and this thinking is likely not sound, yet I thought it......if I could have had Joel without the trial of his cancer that would have been my desire, maybe thats selfish, but if the trial was destined and linked to having Joel (which it was) then I would take it a thousand times over verses not having Joel and not having a trial at all. To not have the opportunity to love Joel and to know Joel would break my heart more than this trial has broken it. To be Joel's mommy has brought fulfillment and joy unspeakable. The love he gave to his family, his sweet personality, his funny expressions, and of course his smile are forever pressed upon our hearts. And oh, what a full heart for Terry, to have the honor of having 9 sons, to be able to stand and fight for Joel's life, what love. His brothers and sisters would have never known a love that exceeds even death, a love that gives sacrificially in helping and serving a weaker vessel. We still love him! The gift of his life to our family outweighs any pain we have experienced. So even now, we laugh, we cry, we sing because we have known and loved a little boy named Joel. Ps.126:4-5 Turn again our captivity, O Lord, as the streams in the south. They that sow in tears shall reap in joy. We have sown in tears, I look forward to the reaping. It is a principle in scripture and in nature that when a seed is sown into the ground, it brings forth fruit, a harvest. I am offering up a prayer to the Lord as in v.4, the south streams makes me think of a soothing, peaceful, healing stream verses the north stream which might represent a cold, difficult stream. Let the south stream flow to our family.
1988 pregnant with Bethany
1992 Elijah is with us now
Oklahoma 1993, Anna is here!
1994, Micah is here, moved out to the country
1995 pregnant with Andrew
1996 Andrew is here!
1997 pregnant with Joshua
1998 Joshua is our little papoose!
1999, back to a traditional looking family. :)
2002 Hosanna is here!
2003 pregnant, (didn't know yet) with twins!
2004 Joel and Josiah are 13-1/2 months old
2005 Joel and Josiah are 2, pregnant with Mercy
2006 our last family picture with Joel, him and Josiah are 3
2007, the cow punching crew!
P.S. Do you know what my blessing was today? Bethany helping me with these pics, many had to be scanned, down-sized and reformated....it took her a looong time! Thanks dear daughter!!!