Look what Micah has out in the pasture!! His deer cameras are working well!! We just got to get the "big one" to come on up!!
Making progress on the special birthday for Josiah! Castle is painted, cake and cookies made. The weather does not look to good but we'll just have to move the castle inside if it rains. It will not fit through the doors so we'll have to remove two of the turrets, but we can make it happen!! All these little knights around here and the fair princesses are ready for the royal party!
I am so thankful Josiah is here yet my heart longs for Joel to be by his side. I miss him! I miss times like this when I know he would have really gotten in to the excitement of being a knight with Siah! Joel was at the time of age three was a bit more outgoing, adventurous than Siah. Now it seems Siah has came out of his shell a bit. Grocery shopping yesterday was difficult....... It is still a road of sorrow.....I remember his last birthday, he was so happy with his John Deere tractor he got, the sounds he made to make it go are still heard in my mind. I know this was all God's will and I accept it but it still does not make my heart break everyday, tears flow and longings and dreams wished for..........my little Joel, I love you still!!
A lot to do today. Bethany and Elijah are at the goat workshop learning how to Artificial Inseminate. Terry is at Farmers Market, the last one. Anna has kitchen things to do for church, and she has to make something for a baby shower and also take her photos to the State Fair. I'll finish up birthday stuff, get the house in order and I need to iron a few pieces for tomorrow and fix dinner for this evening. I wrote this awhile back, still true today........
Sometimes it just doesn't make sense
That all this is working for good
There is so much I 'm going to miss
Because the seen is not understood
I will not get to see you climb farm trees
Wear holes in your jeans, and get dirty knees
I will not get to see your first tooth come out
Or ride a bike with "Siah" no doubt
I will not get to see you do your school
Writing, math and using daddies tools
I will not get to watch you grow taller
Nor see your hand lead Mercy cause' she's smaller
I will not get to see you blow out candles, parties and cakes
Creating, building toys you would make
I will not get to hear your voice change as you become a young man
I will not get to see your shoulders broaden and hold your rough calloused hands
I will not get to hear you pray for strength from above
I will not get to see a bride whom you could love
I will not get to see your generations to come
A family, a heritage, victories won
I can hardly bear the hopes and dreams that will not be
O Lord, give me eyes of faith to look beyond what I can see!!