Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Joys and Fruit.....

November 2006

As we press into the 22nd month of being separated from Joel and even though his little physical body is not here, he has left us with precious memories and joys that we will hold dear to our hearts until we see him again nevertheless his life continues to impact and be a testimony to many. As we have made this journey many have shared and as I was reading this morning in Philippians I was encouraged as there are still ways I can be blessed from his life. As we have sown in tears and sorrow now we can await the fruit and joys from that, Phil.4:17, Not because I desire a gift: but I desire fruit that may abound to your account. That is what I heartily desire...fruit, from our own lives and hearing of ways the Lord has worked in others from and through this trial. Another verse that tied into this thought was 2:17-18, Yea, and if I be offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy, and rejoice with you all. For the same cause also do ye joy, and rejoice with me. If I or we have been a service of your faith, it does bring a joy, that is the fruit I desire and as the second part says you also have joy because you are being changed first by Christ but maybe the Lord used Joel as a means and therefore we can have a joy together as we both experience the fruit from this trial and sorrow. I would be so touched if you would like to share how Joel and this trial has worked, changed, challenged, or been a benefit to your faith. We will all be encouraged as we read of each others "joys and fruit" from this journey. Thank you Lord for my dear Joel, for leaving us with fruits that are abounding to our account and our faith and it all came about from a three year old little boy whom Christ has used.....

We are settling in to a normal week, today was our Working Wednesday and things are looking pretty good around here.....thanks to my children!!!! The guys have started another Build Block house and likely be on this one for a few weeks. Its the owner of the Build Block itself, so they are building the main mans house!!!! Again, thankful for the work the Lord continues to provide and especially as it is getting towards the colder months!

Remember, last year all the miscarriage stuff I was in.....I just can not believe all that did happen. On the 19th is when "something" supposedly expelled but then the miscarriage did not complete until Dec. It would be so neat to have another baby, Mercy would adore it, continuing to ask yet content if He has a different plan. There are a few ladies I have heard of that have given birth to a baby when they are 46, 47, 48 or so.

It's my turn to get in the kitchen.....I just seem to make a mess!!!(hehehe) I am trying to fix our chickens, baking them with this Herb Rub stuff you put all over it. It is smelling good anyway. I have to figure out what to go with it so better go and at least put forth the effort that Anna and Bethany give. Also trying a new bread recipe called Ezekiel Bread.

Hope the Lord gives you grace to share of joys and fruits......

Cindy

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I also have heard of woman having a baby in their late 40's so don't give up:) I am praying that the Lord blesses you with another little one.

stephanie said...

I have been pondering on what to write all night and day. It just seems wrong to say that I have been blessed by your tragedy. But, I have. I would not wish the death of a child on anybody just so I can be blessed, but God has used Joel to speak to many about their own faith. Myself included. In reading your journey through these past several months, God has changed my way of thinking about certain things. I hug my children more often, I praise God in the good and the bad. Your life is such an encouragement to me. I strive to be the person that God wants me to be. You make me want to dig deeper into His word to find out what He wants to say to me. I am so sorry that you have to live with this pain, but please know that you are being prayed for, that God shows you His great love and mercy.

Christina said...

A friend told me to look at your site when I was complaining about the shortage of large family blogs. I wanted to let you know how much I appreciate you sharing your life. I'm so sorry about your Joel. I have twins and I know it must be doubly hard to lose not just a child but that special relationship he had with his sibling.

Mountain Mama said...

I have just gotten to know you so I have not walked very far with you on this journey. But I will say, I love your heart. Your focus is on Jesus ~ no matter the situation. Losing Joel has brought you great sadness and at the same time and overwhelming joy. You value his life. You are sad and yet you continue to give your praises to our Lord.

We just had a stillborn son in May. He was our 9th blessing from God. We miss him and desire to know him - we will some day.

Thanks for your encouraging words and sharing your heart. You have ministered to me.

blessings,
ashley