These all died in faith, not having received the promises, but having seen them afar off, and were persuaded of them, and embraced them, and confessed that they were strangers and pilgrims on the earth. Heb.11:13
Seems this truth is becoming more real, the "world" is so turned around, what is right the world calls wrong and what is wrong it is looked at as right. All these thoughts come from from my grocery day, being out amongst folks. One fellow says," hey, you home school don't you?" I said for us there is not another option, as we feel it is our responsibility according to the scripture. " Don't you have 19 year old?" "Yes we have two 21 year olds." "Are they still home?" "They are and its a blessing." He said something about work and I said we have our own business and then he asks,"how is that working out?" I said its a vision my husband, family has had and it is happening and he likes working with his sons and being with them all day." Now at another store, a check out lady says about home school, "I do not see how you do it." So if I take all these questions and thoughts and add them, you get for the most part, parents sending their children away, they can not understand and believe that a dad and sons can work together and like it, and why would 21 yr. olds be at home and not "out" on their own and living life! We, believers in the Lord, washed in his blood, are just pilgrims here. We are on a journey, to the celestial city, the New Jerusalem! I do not want to sound morbid but I am so looking forward to the place where we will not be strangers anymore! It really is something to look forward to! I have already said how I think of heaven so often, what a day it will be when we are there together with our loved ones!!
The guys have been in Enid working and they are suppose to be back this evening, Lord willing. Tonight we are going to a rodeo and we have a few that will participate. The last time we went to this arena, Joel was with us. (sigh) I remember it like yesterday! This was Elijah's big night of first time bull riding in 06. Memories are really painful right now as we move closer to their birthday and then to Oct. as I think of all that was about to happen with the fevers starting up. (06) The months ahead are the most painful with memories and seeing Joel's body become weaker and weaker. I will say my phrase tonight as I sit there and remember.... "I am going to believe You."
Tomorrow we are having a wiener roast with several families, many of them we have met through our neighbor, David. The Naylors, possibly the Wilson's and the Thompkins and then some we know and they live close to us, the Gellenbecks, Fleishmans and Norwoods. Some volley ball tournaments, food and fellowship!! I gotta get those guys up early to straighten up this place!!!!
Sometimes it just "seems" like the Lord is distant, I am going to continue to search and expect to hear in his word, I know more now than before all this happened with Joel that he is ever so near, as before I would have likely gotten sad with the Lord and maybe turned my shoulder a little but now I see in a greater way how I need him.
Gotta go.....their gettin' ready for the rodeo!!