Wednesday, August 20, 2008

It Is I Myself.....

Even though Joel is not here with our family, and I am still his mommy, I think about him so much. Even though Satan was "kicked" out of heaven and why he obvisiouly would not have anything good to say about heaven, and Joel is safe there dosen't mean that I am not still tortured with thoughts from the enemy. Statistics say 250,000 people die everday, now even if a third of them entered heaven and if you think about since Creation, that is alot of people in heaven. So the enemy brings thoughts to my mind and tries to make me see a picture of my little 3 year old boy, wandering around, not being with his family. As you might dream about a new home, dinner at a wonderful resturant, sitting under a sunset, or whatever seems the most wonderful thing to you, I dream and imagine what it will be like to see Joel again. I read a verse this morning that brought comfort and a looking forward to that time! Luke 24:39, Behold my hands and my feet, that it is I myself: handle me, and see; for a spirit hath not flesh and bones, as ye see me have. This is Jesus talking after his Resurrection. I guess in my mind I am picturing a little 3 year old boy jumping up and down, waving his hands in my direction trying to get his mommy's attention, saying "it is I myself" O, I can not wait to handle him once again, and aren't tiny feet and hands so sweet??? The Lord always meets me when the tears are hot on my cheeks and speaks his truth into my heart that I might rest and not worry about my little Joel. "It is I myself" are words of life to me today!!!!

I am on my to Wal MArt, so I had to stop by and see all the library people:) David, our friend, had a serious conversation with Dell this morning and encouraged them to "get this moving!!" Tomorrow the Burnett's are coming to our house to play! Friday will be grocery day and the sun is peeking out today!! The guys were able to go to work, so that means "resouces for gooood foooood." You all are such an inspiration to me, to keep keeping up with us, our lives are really not that exciting but I do enjoy the fellowship with you all via this blog. It is still an avenue for me to release grieving even though it has been this long, and no I am not over it, nor will I ever be, but continuing writing lets Joel's story not be "hid under a bushel." May the Lord be honored in Joels life still!!!! Thanks for reading.....


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Anonymous said...

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"You all are such an inspiration to me, to keep keeping up with us, our lives are really not that exciting"

Maybe not exciting but joyful. It is joyful:
to see one in the Word to bind up a broken heart,
with the comfort which she has received to then comfort and teach others,
to see a father give up a career to work with his sons,
to see a family work together in the garden to supply food for themselves and others,
to see children work and play together,
to have a visual door to family activities with all the pictures you post,
to have a daughter who understands how a rainy day corresponds to life and how the sun will again shine in life,
to have friends you look forward to sharing life with,
to have hope in a multigenerational family that honors God, honors their parents, loves children and works diligently.
Maybe your life is not exciting (we would not know it from the blog) but it teaches many in the light of Ecclesiastes 11:
The Uncertainties of Life
1 Send your grain across the seas,
and in time, profits willflow back to you.
2 But divide your investments among many places,
for you do not know what risks might lie ahead.
3 When clouds are heavy, the rains come down.
Whether a tree falls north or south, it stays where it falls.

4 Farmers who wait for perfect weather never plant.
If they watch every cloud, they never harvest.

5 Just as you cannot understand the path of the wind or the mystery of a tiny baby growing in its mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the activity of God, who does all things.

6 Plant your seed in the morning and keep busy all afternoon, for you don’t know if profit will come from one activity or another—or maybe both.

Advice for Young and Old
7 Light is sweet; how pleasant to see a new day dawning.
8 When people live to be very old, let them rejoice in every day of life. But let them also remember there will be many dark days.
9 Young people, it’s wonderful to be young! Enjoy every minute of it. Do everything you want to do; take it all in. But remember that you must give an account to God for everything you do. 10 So refuse to worry, and keep your body healthy. But remember that youth, with a whole life before you, is meaningless.
Ecclesiastes 12
1 Don’t let the excitement of youth cause you to forget your Creator. Honor him in your youth before you grow old and say, “Life is not pleasant anymore.” 2 Remember him before the light of the sun, moon, and stars is dim to your old eyes, and rain clouds continually darken your sky. 3 Remember him before your legs—the guards of your house—start to tremble; and before your shoulders—the strong men—stoop. Remember him before your teeth—your few remaining servants—stop grinding; and before your eyes—the women looking through the windows—see dimly.

4 Remember him before the door to life’s opportunities is closed and the sound of work fades. Now you rise at the first chirping of the birds, but then all their sounds will grow faint.

5 Remember him before you become fearful of falling and worry about danger in the streets; before your hair turns white like an almond tree in bloom, and you drag along without energy like a dying grasshopper, and the caperberry no longer inspires sexual desire. Remember him before you near the grave, your everlasting home, when the mourners will weep at your funeral.

6 Yes, remember your Creator now while you are young, before the silver cord of life snaps and the golden bowl is broken. Don’t wait until the water jar is smashed at the spring and the pulley is broken at the well. 7 For then the dust will return to the earth, and the spirit will return to God who gave it.
13 Here now is my final conclusion: Fear God and obey his commands, for this is everyone’s duty. 14 God will judge us for everything we do, including every secret thing, whether good or bad.

Thank you for showing us the way to a joyful life