Monday, August 4, 2008

I Am He......

....Jesus saith unto them, I am he. And Judas also, which betrayed him, stood with them. As soon then as he had said unto them, I am he, they went backward, and fell to the ground. John 18:5-6

Whatever we face, whatever is before us whether a grieving mountain or temporal inconveniences when I am He is with us we can know that we can overcome these inconveniences and walk through the valley of death and will come forth as gold refined. Today, I am just having to fall on these scriptures because my heart "feels" succumbed to circumstances. It is I am He that is going before me.....

As to these inconveniences Terry was able to get the 2nd shower going so that is a blessing! Now all the electrical problems are looking to get resolved but it could be a day or so. We had an electrician come out and give us an estimate and his first quote was $6ooo and then he lowered it to $3500. Well.... since that will not work with our budget and this morning an engineer from our power company came out to evaluate the situation, he and Terry talked and with the help of David our neighbor they are going to tackle this job themselves, and the good news is the materials will likely be under $500!!!!! They will be putting a new breaker box and increasing to a 200 amp service. So if you think to, pray all goes well and for safety as they do this job this evening or in the morning. Terry is going to run some ext. cords from our well house which is on a different meter so we can keep refrig., freezers and possibly the window unit in the livingroom on so we can stay here while they work!

I continue to read about many other parents that have been separated from their little children and I do not feel I am on a "weird or longer than normal grieving path if I were comparing. We just have to walk through at our own pace and face this "giant" not by my might or my power but through HIS Spirit!!!! Some days are so good and then there are days when my heart feels as though it is going to burst with pain and longings for Joel!!!!

As I think of the scripture above and all the things I (we) face, I just want to take that phrase and place it in front of each burden and let him "knock it down."

I am grieving
I am He.....electrical circumstances
I am He.....desire for more children
I am and work and provision
I am He.....salvation to the younger children
I am He...... futures for all the children but especially for Caleb and Daniel as they desire to prepare their fields.
I am He.....the school year ahead
I am become more of the wife that I should be

These are just on the forefront of my heart right now, I know my list could be longer but I will leave it with that for now. May the great I am he do a mighty work!!!!!

O I just have to tell you what Mercy likes to eat right now......"Bikini Bread." It is so sweet how she says it. Anna will have to get some more zucchini bread going today!!! You probably have a good recipe but here's the one we like if your interested.

Zucchini Bread

2 cups sucanat (sugar)
1 cup oil
3 eggs, beaten
3 tsp. vanilla extract
1 tsp. salt
1 tsp. baking soda
3 tsp. cinnamon
1/4 tsp. baking powder
3 cups whole wheat flour
2 zucchini, unpeeled, grated, and patted dry with a towel

1/2 cup chopped nuts (optional)

In a mixing bowl, beat sugar, oil, eggs and vanilla. Stir in salt, baking soda, cinnamon, baking powder and flour. Stir in zucchini and nuts. Pour into a well greased bundt pan or 3 10-inch loaf pans.
(you may have a little batter leftover if you use 3 loaf pans). Bake at 350 for 50-65 minutes or until bread springs back when gently pressed with fingertips.

It is amazing how fast the clothes are drying out on the fences, the towels are a little crunchy, but it beats the laundry mat cost!!!

May the Lord bless your week and may he be the I am He to you today!!!!


(the picture above is Aug. 1, 06, it was so hot and they were inside with the cool and having a big time)

1 comment:

Lockwoods said...

2 Chron. 20:12 "...for we have no might against this great company that cometh against us; neither know we what to do: but our eyes are upon thee."

The Lord brought this verse to me this morning...and oh, how often have I prayed that very prayer. Sometimes the battles are so great...
It could be physical with sickness, things breaking, bare cupboards ect...
It can be emotional or spritual...a grieving heart, discouragment, disappointments ect..
And so often we realize we just have no might in and of ourselves...
We do not know what do to...often it hurts so bad or seems so impossible whatever the circumstance...
But our eyes are upon you!!! We just keep looking to the ONE who is all might and power....the ONE who does know what to do and will do it!!! Just look to Jesus!!

I love the picture of Joel and Josiah you very sweet...It brings tears to my eyes just knowing how much you must love pictures like that, yet how hard it is too to see them.
I'm praying for you Cindy!