Renewed Mind......

........like I said the rest and I KNOW there were some praying for me late last night and that combined has helped and refreshed my perspective, but mostly this morning Jesus shewed himself again to the disciples at the sea...John 21:1. I was so very thirsty to hear something from the Lord and his word "tasted so good today." .....they caught nothing v.3, this is the "feelings" I have often, But when the morning was now come, Jesus stood on the shore:but the disciples knew not it was Jesus v.4, He is here even IF I do not feel it!!! Then Jesus saith unto them, children, have ye any meat? they answered him, No (v.5) That is my answer too, "No," I do not seem to be getting anything out of this!!!! But what do I do?? Answer.... And he said unto them, cast the net on the right side of the ship and ye shall find v.6 I am going to keep praying, seeking, listening, looking, expecting, hoping and believing and I am going to find..... peace, comfort and whatever the Lord wants to tell me of the "whys." I am going to keep coming to his table, Jesus saith unto them, Come and dine v.12. The part that I really was blessed by was in v.18, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, when thou wast young, thou girdest thyself and walkedst whither thou wouldest: but when thou shalt be old, thou shalt stretch forth thy hands, and another shall gird thee and carry thee wither thou wouldest not. The first part of that verse made me think of life before Joel became sick and the second part gave me a picture of life without Joel, He will carry me! That is what I am picturing myself doing, lifting up my hands as a demonstration that I am desperate and trusting that he will gird me up and carry me, and it will be in and through ways that I would not choose but as it says in v.19, this spake he, signifying by what death he should glorify God, the way will be one of which glorifies Him, he saith unto him, Follow me....... by his grace only, I will! Thank you for praying, thank you for the encouragement, its just a long road but I am going to keep moving forward. I am not the only person hurting, there are so many, keep praying for little Marissa, I do not know them, I am just praying for them as you came and prayed for our family with Joel. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/marissamonroe

Bethany and Anna had to take the new bull calf to the vet this morning, he has fever, and an infection of some sort that he likely got through his navel because he did not absorb the colostrum, so he might not make it, very sad for the children. The vet will do what he can.

Today.....we'll just be around here, I need to plan my grocery day tomorrow and really need to do some school work. Not alot happening!

Thank you for being there....

Cindy