Joel's Journey: much.......

Friday, October 30, 2009

much.......

your birth.....
our first touch
alas, your in my arms
my heart too
ahead.....joys unspeakable
memories being made
small hands clasping my fingers
your walking!!!
squeals, laughs, hugs
you give to others
running, laughing, playing
brothers, sisters, never lonely!
a hurt, a tear
its me, your mother, near
we seek, we pray
our day becomes dark
Jesus, oh Jesus!
your death
our last touch
......for now
alas, your in His arms
but still in my heart
.....for she loved much

How could I not?? I still love much!! I read that scripture this morning in Luke, for she loved much. Writing helps, thanks for allowing me to keep grieving.......

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5 comments:

-stephanie- said...: I watched Joel's Journey the other night. I was so touched by the love, and so saddened by the loss. Yes, how can you not still have that love. It never ends.; October 30, 2009 at 11:52 AM
Gottjoy! said...: Thank you for stopping by and commenting. Thank you for the beautiful verse..I will let my husband read this when he gets home from work. I know he will be greatly encouraged as I was...it started as a weepy day, but God tenderly brought words (written and spoken) from others to encourage my heart.

I look forward to reading your blog further and about your precious Joel...Your family pictures brought a smile...; October 30, 2009 at 2:33 PM
Leanne said...: May all your days begin, endure, and end with the comfort on the Holy Spirit can give.

May your heart remember always.

May you learn to laugh without ache and love again without fear.; October 30, 2009 at 3:15 PM
Katie said...: Beautiful.; October 30, 2009 at 11:43 PM
j said...: Sweet Cindy. Thank you for sharing.
Jessica; October 31, 2009 at 10:00 AM

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Joel's Story

Joel, our 11th of 13 and a twin of Josiah, at age 3 was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma, a childhood cancer, on December 6th, 2006. Joel had three perfect years of health and he and Josiah celebrated their 3rd birthday Sept. 13th, 2006. The first of Oct. Joel started having unexplained fevers for a few days and would return to active play. After the fourth round of fevers we took him to our family Dr. which they said his iron was low, so we treated that for a few weeks and took him back only to have his hemo. showing lower than before. We were referred to a hematologists and saw him a few weeks with blood checks twice a week. At a visit on Dec. 4th we showed the Dr. the bumps, (which were tumors but we did not know at the time) on Joel's head and he was very concerned and we were told we needed to admit him immediately and start extensive tests the following day. Joel went through rigorous testing and then the dreaded results were given. Joel was at a stage IV the most extensive stage, but we were hopeful that the Lord would use the means of Chemotherapy treatments to restore Joel's body. Joel endured 8 1/2 days in the hospital, came home for Christmas, and returned for his second round of chemo Jan. 3, 2007. Joel had a seizure that night after midnight and went into a coma due to a tumor bleeding in his head area and causing his brain to swell. After tests the following days, the Dr. declared Joel "brain dead" and took us to court to force us to take Joel off life support, as we did not agree with the medical field's definition of death. Our family sought to stand with the scripture, "life is in the blood,"and until Joel's heart quit beating naturally, he was living. We were making arrangements to bring him home and on January 23, 2007 his little heart stopped beating and he went to be with the Lord Jesus in heaven. Our lives are changed forever. God is faithful in the midst of this trial and we look with great hope to be with him someday.