If I did not have a hope for the things that are unseen, I would be in such a despairing state in the ways that providences are taking me through with the seen. And that hope is in the truth of scripture! Ps.119:15, I will meditate in thy precepts, and have respect unto thy ways. I hold the Lord's doings with this situation in high esteem, I respect what he is doing by faith. Ps. 119:32, I will run the way of thy commandments, when thou shalt enlarge my heart. Just another opportunity to have my heart made more right, to have it enlarged with his graces as I pass through this "path of the Lord." It looks like this miscarriage is not going to be complicated at all, which I am soooo very grateful. My body is already tapering off and I feel good. Thank you for your prayers. I read again Ps. 139 yesterday, and was blessed to know that even though this little ones substance was so tiny, he knew it, My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret..... Terry and I believe that at the moment of conception, there is life! I will continue to pray that prayer and if he is willing, may he make us fruitful! I will be joyous if he chooses to and if not, then I am so thankful for all the ones he has given, I cannot complain!!! I will hope in his word because he will give what he deems best!
Well today, we are doing our "Working Wednesday," the guys are here today and they have been doing much needed lawn care, maintenance, outside cleanup, and Terry is doing some paper work that is long overdue! We are very excited about 60 acres of land that we are going to lease, about 15 minutes from our house, and be putting our cattle on and then expanding our herd. We hope to get a bull soon as Anna's heifer is coming in heat. Always wonderful to have expansion of the farm and productivity!
Just wanted to give a quick update and did not want you all to worry, it looks like the Lord is being so gracious and allowing all to go smoothly and we are thankful. I am doing ok with it all, I guess thoughts are lingering before me as we approach August and memories with Joel, and to think that in Aug. 06, he had about 60 days of perfect health until the fevers started in Oct. All the dates are unforgettable. Remembering the first of Aug. too is when we got all those "cow hats." It seems so much time and events has come in between since he was here with us, like another era of life, so it is with all those thoughts that I feel a bit heavy, wonderful memories, yet now looking at them with knowing the outcome is painfully hard, but HE lives and therefore Joel lives!!!!!!