Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Hope....

If I did not have a hope for the things that are unseen, I would be in such a despairing state in the ways that providences are taking me through with the seen. And that hope is in the truth of scripture! Ps.119:15, I will meditate in thy precepts, and have respect unto thy ways. I hold the Lord's doings with this situation in high esteem, I respect what he is doing by faith. Ps. 119:32, I will run the way of thy commandments, when thou shalt enlarge my heart. Just another opportunity to have my heart made more right, to have it enlarged with his graces as I pass through this "path of the Lord." It looks like this miscarriage is not going to be complicated at all, which I am soooo very grateful. My body is already tapering off and I feel good. Thank you for your prayers. I read again Ps. 139 yesterday, and was blessed to know that even though this little ones substance was so tiny, he knew it, My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret..... Terry and I believe that at the moment of conception, there is life! I will continue to pray that prayer and if he is willing, may he make us fruitful! I will be joyous if he chooses to and if not, then I am so thankful for all the ones he has given, I cannot complain!!! I will hope in his word because he will give what he deems best!

Well today, we are doing our "Working Wednesday," the guys are here today and they have been doing much needed lawn care, maintenance, outside cleanup, and Terry is doing some paper work that is long overdue! We are very excited about 60 acres of land that we are going to lease, about 15 minutes from our house, and be putting our cattle on and then expanding our herd. We hope to get a bull soon as Anna's heifer is coming in heat. Always wonderful to have expansion of the farm and productivity!

Just wanted to give a quick update and did not want you all to worry, it looks like the Lord is being so gracious and allowing all to go smoothly and we are thankful. I am doing ok with it all, I guess thoughts are lingering before me as we approach August and memories with Joel, and to think that in Aug. 06, he had about 60 days of perfect health until the fevers started in Oct. All the dates are unforgettable. Remembering the first of Aug. too is when we got all those "cow hats." It seems so much time and events has come in between since he was here with us, like another era of life, so it is with all those thoughts that I feel a bit heavy, wonderful memories, yet now looking at them with knowing the outcome is painfully hard, but HE lives and therefore Joel lives!!!!!!

Cindy

4 comments:

Emma R. said...

I have not been online the last few days and just read this morning about your loss. I am so sorry. It is a relief to hear that the Lord is taking care of you at this time, physically and emotionally. I am glad to hear this is going a little more smoothly than last time. I am still very sad about it, and am truly sorry.

August is going to be a busy month for us with Emma's surgery so I don't know how much I will be able to stop in but wanted to send big HUGS to you, and know I will be thinking of you, as you are filled with memories of Joel. You are never far from our minds, and always in our prayers

Lori

Paul and Katrina Perea said...

I know exactly how dates and months go when you have a loss. I always hate turning my calendar to April, as that was the month of my baby girls birth and June..when she went home to be with the Lord. It's like the dates jump out and stare at me all the while we are in those months. I pray that Lord keep you in good health through your loss and I know you know that His ways are Perfect, even though they are hard sometimes for us to understand.
God Bless you,
Katrina

TigerLily's Gift said...

Today most of us reading have our "Joel", today has been real disappointing, difficult to face. The ALMIGHTY God has shown me I can rejoice today and not morn. Why??? We rejoice in the truth!!!!! We will be united with the Lord. We have chosen to live as more than conquerers and rejoicing in the truth.

Isaiah 30:29
And you will sing as on the night you celebrate a holy festival; your hearts will rejoice as when people go up with flutes to the mountain of the LORD, to the Rock of Israel.

Nahum 1:15
Look, there on the mountains, the feet of one who brings good news, who proclaims peace! Celebrate your festivals, O Judah, and fulfill your vows. No more will the wicked invade you; they will be completely destroyed.

I sang this morning during our 10am family devotion, the words of the Hymn "Have Faith in God". They came to my heart that was morning. We will sing together the same song during out 10am Saturday devotion. With faith in God, we as a family no need to morn, all the reason Celebrate, as in the verses above!!!!!

Adina said...

Now that we know we are having a boy, the name "Hope" which was in the running along with "Mercy" for this child, will most likely not be used. . . I pray the Lord gives you an opportunity to use another of your beautiful names. . . just so you know, "Hope" is up for grabs in my mind. If we can't use it, I HOPE you would feel free to consider it for one of your next. . .if the Lord so blesses!