Joel's Journey: always....

Saturday, October 27, 2012

always....

Everyday, every moment, in every season, with every sunrise and sunset....I will miss you and love you
always!! It was this time 6 years ago that it began. My world changed forever. Sure, grace has carried me these years but I will never, ever get "over" it and I will never, ever be the same person. There is a place so deep within that is empty.

5 comments:

Teena said...: Thinking of you. I remember. Jen posted it on a board that I am on. Asking us to pray. I found the blog and started praying and reading. Lifting you up ...asking God to pour His peace over you. I think of Joel often. When I talk about you my little boys will ask who is Mrs. Cindy? I will say... remember Joel? Remember, we watched his video? Oh yes.. they will say.

Love his name with the sticks. Very cool.

Love you much.; October 27, 2012 at 10:37 PM
Marie said...: Thinking of you!!! Hugs from NC!; October 28, 2012 at 6:34 AM
Unknown said...: Prayers to you all my friend.; October 28, 2012 at 8:48 AM
Janet said...: Sendng you all warmest wishes from South Africa xx; October 28, 2012 at 2:51 PM
Rachel said...: Hugs to you from Georgia. Hoping some of the wonderful encouragement you have sent my way will find its way back to you in greater measure!; October 28, 2012 at 9:54 PM

Joel's Story

Joel, our 11th of 13 and a twin of Josiah, at age 3 was diagnosed with Neuroblastoma, a childhood cancer, on December 6th, 2006. Joel had three perfect years of health and he and Josiah celebrated their 3rd birthday Sept. 13th, 2006. The first of Oct. Joel started having unexplained fevers for a few days and would return to active play. After the fourth round of fevers we took him to our family Dr. which they said his iron was low, so we treated that for a few weeks and took him back only to have his hemo. showing lower than before. We were referred to a hematologists and saw him a few weeks with blood checks twice a week. At a visit on Dec. 4th we showed the Dr. the bumps, (which were tumors but we did not know at the time) on Joel's head and he was very concerned and we were told we needed to admit him immediately and start extensive tests the following day. Joel went through rigorous testing and then the dreaded results were given. Joel was at a stage IV the most extensive stage, but we were hopeful that the Lord would use the means of Chemotherapy treatments to restore Joel's body. Joel endured 8 1/2 days in the hospital, came home for Christmas, and returned for his second round of chemo Jan. 3, 2007. Joel had a seizure that night after midnight and went into a coma due to a tumor bleeding in his head area and causing his brain to swell. After tests the following days, the Dr. declared Joel "brain dead" and took us to court to force us to take Joel off life support, as we did not agree with the medical field's definition of death. Our family sought to stand with the scripture, "life is in the blood,"and until Joel's heart quit beating naturally, he was living. We were making arrangements to bring him home and on January 23, 2007 his little heart stopped beating and he went to be with the Lord Jesus in heaven. Our lives are changed forever. God is faithful in the midst of this trial and we look with great hope to be with him someday.