I share all that as a burden for many that are deceived. Also if you think about it would you pray for a woman that has given birth to a baby boy at 23 weeks and weighs 15 ounces I met her as we went through our situation with Joel, she came to the hospital several times, they also had another baby girl, about 4 years ago, and is doing great, she was born about the same gestational time, what an incredible journey that was for them, and now here they are again. They live out of state now, but the Lord has them pegged, He knows!!!
The guys are working away today, we are here without a vehicle( truck still sick) but do not really have a need to go anywhere so we are fine. Bethany's goat is still at the vet with the toxemia and they are going to induce her, its 17 days early and too early really, but prayers for a goat is even heard. If the babies are does they could be worth $1000 or more so it is sad on the part our farm endeavors as this is what we are seeking to do, to raise show goats to sell. So Bethany's buddies out there.....pray!!!!
As far as the grieving journey goes, I still cry everyday, I miss Joel, I miss the twosome stuff, I still have times where I feel like I just drop to a real low, but it does not seem to last too long, I catch myself at times getting sad with the Lord, actually leaning too much on mine own understanding, I just get sad......and then there are days that I feel so light , hopeful, anticipating the reunion. Terry told a thought he had one day as he was outside to our church fellowship as he was teaching one Sunday and I love to think about it, Terry was outside one day a few weeks ago and he was looking out a certain way and he said it felt like a day in Dec., cold and all, he was talking to the Lord and even asking Him "why?" he had to take Joel and that it hurt so bad, and then Terry said he was not telling God anything He did not know, as He too knew the separation with His Son, and then Terry thought of what it would be like to enter heaven and have Joel come up to him, so full of joy and happiness and say" look daddy, I can walk!!!!!!" I just try to picture that in my mind and it brings a fullness, a hope, a looking forward to, and its like I tell myself to hang on....someday it will happen, but for now live, laugh and love the family that I am so blessed with here!!!
*******On a happy mommy heart note, this morning I was praying and asking the Lord to continue to allow Joel's story to go forth......and about an hour later I received an e-mail from a woman that would like to show the DVD at her church for a group of ladies as they have a banquet with the the theme, God is Faithful. I was so very thankful for this unexpected blessing!!!**********
Its a bit cold to day, got the wood stove going, Mercy girl is taking a nap, some are outside and now I better go and do something useful, like figure out what to fix for dinner.
2 comments:
Cindy,
Thanks for your words of strength.
Lindsay
Amen! I remember when you shared 1 Cor 2:5 with me back in July and our Lord used it to encourage me SO much! I taped it into the front of my Bible so I'd see it all of the time, I memorized it and said it to myself day in and day out, I clung to the Truth in it of God's Sovereign power and it sustained me... and still sustains me! It's definitely a favorite verse!!! :)
We're praying for the guys job and for Bethany's goat, and for you, and for all the rest of your dear family! (: ... hehehe, we can get ahead of you and Mr.Morris since he's out of town!!! :b Although, you're 21 years and 11 months ahead of us... :)
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