Aug. 06, 07, 08.....

August 5, 2006- This was a Saturday and we attended a wedding and after we went over to a western store and purchased many "cow hats" that afternoon. Joel was so excited, marching around and out the store with his new hat on!! The picture on the side with the yellow shirt on....he was one happy cowboy!!!!

August 2007- I had just went to my first midwife appt. and was to go back on the 13th, to see if we could hear the heartbeat, but on that day there was only silence and then the following day (14th) I had the ultrasound and confirmed that the baby had died earlier in preg. And then the miscarriage that did not complete until Dec. 07

August 2008- Today remembering all these paths I have trod, thinking of Joel, I am thankful that the Lord has had mercy and at this time we are not experiencing such trials as the past few years!

You might wonder why I post so many scriptures.....it is my sustenance right now, each morning I look so forward as to what I might hear today, about what to do, about Joel, how my heart can endure such a separation, it is water to a thirsty heart, it is my "life support." I read several verses in Ps. 65 9-11, this morning and there were so many words that gave me comfort. I looked them up so as to have a broader scope of meditation for my mind as that is where the enemy seeks to thwart my hope. Here are the words in the order they came in the verses....

visitest- to oversee, care for, bestow
waterest- to run over, to over flow
enrichest- to grow, make rich
preparest- to be erect, establish, fix, order, ordain
settest- to sink, press or lead down, stick fast
blessest- kneel, to bless God
crownest- encircle, compass

I just went through each one of those meanings and made a prayer to the Lord this morning. I thanked him for visiting, for overseeing us through this trail, he will waterest my dry, hurt heart, asking him to enrich me and cause me to grow, making me rich with his graces because of this trial, thanking him that he prepared in eternity past all that we would need to suffice what we are going through, asking him to ground me more in him, for me to abide more in him, and then as I was on my knees there before the Lord, I told the Lord with great tears that I was able to bless him and kneel before his plan with Joel, and then as I thought about the last word and with the idea receiving a crown at the end of all this, while here on this earth he will encircle me with his presence and then in eternity I will be encompassed with his presence forever! What a wonderful, faithful God upon his throne accomplishing the very best for us, even through the fires and trials of faith!

OK....the electricity is all working, new breaker box in and nothing "blew up." David and Terry and the guys finished up around 11:30 or so last night. We were without window unit a/c from 4 pm until when they got it fixed, it was hot, and we were outside much after the sun went down, only to come into a dark house except for Josiah and Hosanna's tiny flashlights. Micah was able to get one lamp on so we sat around and waited for the guys to finish up. All went well and everyone was safe, so thank the Lord for that!!!! Today was the day to see if we could get high speed connection, but even on top of the barn, the reception was a little too weak, but there is one more option, David might get a relay tower and we can bump off of his possibly, so we'll see what happens!

May the Lord take those 7 words above and work them into your heart and all that you may face as well......

Cindy