Friday, January 30, 2015


Fun week helping Caleb paint their house. Miah,hosie, siah and myself painted all the upstairs one day. Second day, hosie and I did all the downstairs  first coat. Third day, me, hosie and Anna came today and we got the second coat on the downstairs. All that's left is the wall space that will need scaffolding and im not doing that! Ha!! It's beautiful and so happy for Caleb kristen and rowdys home! 

Also, if your on Instagram, come on over and follow me! I post photos of our everyday!! cindy1962 is my name over there!! 

We have had some spring teaser weather. It was nice but colder today!! So ready for spring! I don't know if we are going to have a garden this year. It cost a lot and terry said he doesn't know if he has  the money. Guess we will see what happens!

Hope everyone has a good weekend!!

The sunrise this morning was spectacular!! 

Friday, January 23, 2015

happy birthday +heaven day

Happy 13th birthday to hosanna and 8 years ago, our sweet 3 yo joel caleb went to live with Jesus. A day of celebrating and weeping. Hosie and an all white once upon a time party! 

Tuesday, January 20, 2015


 Well here we are again, almost 8 years ago, the 23rd my sweet Joel flew to Jesus! How can and could it all have happened? and to a three year old? It will never be different, even 99 years from now, the missing and wishing it all would have never happened! Sometimes spurts of anger spring up. What was the purpose? I have to keep thinking that his plan is good. I will never be the same person ever again. So many times I still feel like I'm living outside it all and looking on from a distance. Shadow of Death is always looming! But I get up everyday and keep fixing meals and keep doing laundry and keep doing the mundane. Thank you praying. for being with us these 8 years! 

Also, Terry has another job. He actually has 3 jobs. The construction business, his life business and now a part time job in guthrie. Twenty hours a week. Our finaicial situation is at its worst in our marriage. I mean we are not even in debt. I have been looking for houses to clean. So far nothing has turned up. It's crazy. I thought when some of the kids left/moved out we might could start to do some things. Projects or maybe even travel. Now it's just trying to buy groceries. Why complain? I'm trying not to. Lord knows I don't want more discouragement! We have a warm house and health, so we do have much to be grateful for. 

Hope you all are having a good start the 2015!! So ready for Spring!! And warmth!some blue skies are carrying me though!! 

Had a fun day at the free zoo day yesterday with rowdy and the little kids!! Beautiful day!!

Much love!!